Oopsy

I guess I upset the applecart with my last post. Thus, it's been removed. I don't really want to go off riling people, but as always it's what I do best.

What I wanted, needed, was a place for me to write instead of tearing down walls and putting fists through windows and breaking pretty cups. But I guess even that has to come with a censor, as last night I spent a miserable night on the sofa and expect I'll spent another one there tonight.

The post is gone, but I still feel so lost. How do you describe lost to someone, when you're sitting in the middle of the living room and lost means that no one knows you're there? Maybe for me, lost means that no one DOES know where I am, on the inside.

I didn't sleep worth crap last night; but... night night folks. I took enough pills this time to ensure I sleep til morning.